AFFAIRS OF THE HEART

It seemed her world had fallen apart, she had never been so blue,
Trying to heal a broken heart but she didn't know what to do.
She needed someone to talk to, someone to ease the pain,
I hated to see her feel so blue, that's how it all began

She was on the rebound and I, unhappy at home,
Two people with a single need not to be alone,
In time it had to happen, what was never meant to be,
I found myself in love with her and she, in love with me,

Love seemed so beautiful the way we loved each other,
If only we had somehow met before I'd wed another.
Now my world is falling apart and I don't know what to do,
One thing I know with all my heart, I love the both of you.

You are always with me in everything I do,
When I'm asleep, when I'm awake, I'm always seeing you.
It seems that I am missing you more each passing day,
And yet there is nothing I can do, I just can't find a way.

It's hard to fall asleep at night but when I finally do,
Instead of dreaming sweet dreams, I dream of missing you.
When I am home with family, I hurt another way,
So they don't know the way I feel, I pretend that I'm okay.

I know I lost my happiness the day I let you go,
And what kept me from leaving her, I hope someday I'll know.
Whatever the future holds for me, One thing I know that's true,
I'll have to live until I die, And when I die, I'll be loving you.

EPILOUGE:

Many years have passed since these thoughts were written here,
And I know that when I wrote them my thoughts were most sincere.
All of the questions have been answered and the mystery is gone,
I know why I abandoned you and left you all alone.

I know I did the right thing by remaining with my wife,
And I almost feel guilty I'm so happy with my life.
Our life is filled with love and we thank God every day,
For all the many blessings that he has sent our way.

Let this be the last time and then we'll say goodbye,
It could never work for us no matter how we try.
Let this be the last time, I know you'll love again,
Let this be the last time or it's sure to end in pain.

It will end in pain dear, for not just me and you,
We will wreck the lives or others with the careless things we do.
So let this be the last time, let's not make this the end,
You know we have to say goodbye but I need you for my friend.

Honey I want to see you happy and I'd like not to be so sad,
I know it wont be easy cause I'm feeling really bad.
While you are forgetting me and I'm forgetting you,
Think not of the good times but of the hell I put you through.

When at last, some time has passed and if it doesn't hurt too much,
And if we can learn to handle it let's try to keep in touch.
We need not forget the happy times or the joys we've known together,
Those memories never have to die they can live forever.

I know I'll never forget you,though I wish sometimes I would,
I know you'll never forget me but it would be helpful if you could.
I hope some day, you will find what it is you're looking for,
And I hope he'll love you like I do, for no one could love you more.

.......................................for Sue, my MEANING IN LIFE.........................................

Meaning in life was lost in a sea of stormy, turbulent hell,
My reason to be eluded me with every angry swell.
The gusts of wind that stung my face were all filled with despair,
I felt that I was drowning and yet I did not care.

The search was lost for peace of mind, my thoughts all tortured me,
I could not see the sunrise with eyes fixed in the sea.
Like the sun, she just kept shining till her reflection caught my eye,
And I felt the warmth of her loving ray from a love that would not die.

Now the sea is calm in me, there's blue skies up above,
And the sun is shining brightly and my heart is filled with love.

She's been a tortured girl since the day that I first met her,
And she'll be a restless soul because that's all that she can be,
I knew I shouldn't love her and I should have run for cover,
But I didn't and she cast her spell on me.

No one should ever love her for no one can ever have her,
And no one can ever have her for that's the way she is,
So I left her like I found her and I'm scarred 'cause she's a downer,
And she can't even help the way she is,

There is no other lover that I can hold above her,
She can really make a man feel high,
But you'll soon be feelin' low and it will have to end you know,
You'll hurt so bad you'll think you want to die,

She's bound to find another, someone to be her lover,
Someone to feed on, body and soul,
And so it will continue, misery is on her menu,
And that will be her diet 'till she's old.

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